I have been chatting with guys in secret on dating sites, over email, and Skype. Flirting, sending them sexy photos of myself, and ignoring my agreement to not do this after the last two times you caught me. I also lied to you when you asked if I was sneaking around and still doing this.
First of all I’d like to say I’m deeply sorry this happened and that I’m going to work my hardest to solve this and make everything better, I know I hurt you and betrayed your trust in me.
In the past you had asked me to not go on social networks/hook up sites such as grommr, talk and flirt with guys. But recently I failed you and did it again, thus hurting you and disobeying a clear and direct order.
I know there are no excuses for this kind of behavior. Before I had no idea why I kept returning to these dating sites, but I think we have discovered what the problem is: I do it because I’m bored.
In the past I would go on dating sites or apps like scruff or grindr or grommr when I was bored, instead of using my time with something productive.
Although it is not at the same level it was before, there is still some lingering need for me to do this in certain situations or moments. I know this kind of behavior hurts you and I don’t want to do it but I don’t know why I do it, sometimes I would say I can’t control myself, and I think I might be kind of addicted to this type of sites.
Since I met you I haven’t used them to hook up with anyone but just to chat and check on other people, it is still wrong because it is emotional infidelity. Now that we have analyzed the issue and pin pointed the problem I promise I will do my best to find a solution to this type of addiction I might have.
- If I ever feel the need to go on grommr or flirt with any guy, I will talk to you instead and tell you what is going on.
- I will try to find a project I can be passionate about so that I can use all my spare time with it instead of browsing and chatting with people.
Again, I want to apologize because I shouldn’t have done this in the first place, there is no need for me to look for validation anywhere else because you are everything that I want and need in the world, you are my whole universe and I never wanted to hurt you but I know I did so I will work my hardest to fix things and treat you the way you deserve. I want to thank you for giving me another chance and helping me improve myself and become a better man, and the man that you deserve.
I hope that, in time, I can earn back your trust and you will take me back as your pup. I don’t know what I would do without you in my life. I continue to wear your brand and collar; you will always be my Master. Thank you for giving me another chance, I promise I will make you proud.